The luckiest.

Go figure that nothing in life works out the way you picture perfect planned it in your crazy little mind...I knew that, but did I really know it? It bloody amazes me when life comes around and spanks me, teaches me...

I think a wound is finally healing and that I'm finding some peace about a deep loss...and that loss isn't so lost and surprisingly, pleasantly holds my hand and covers me in love.

How did I feel? I thought, what an ass I was/am. So I got hurt, really hurt and decided to walk...I got hurt and left a friendship...lame, I know...and then I suffered and dreamt about it for years. sometimes "some type of peace" just isn't enough...We both suffered, a great deal I think and for what?

In any case, that peace, her peace took my itty bitty peace and opened the door, brought us face to face, holding hands.

How I used to pray for this moment. God please take this poison out of me and fill my heart with love, help me abandon my pride, help her forgive me for not being there. I lost. we lost moments. 6 years of them. How could I be so selfish?

And there it was, the hug I'd dreamt of for six years...

i'm the luckiest.

Thank you for having no limit to your love.

boy, in life, i've still got a freaking lot to learn...and, I might lack discipline but i dooooooooooo lovvvvvvvvvvvvve to learn!

Amen.


Drops of Jupiter
Train

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way